well it's been a long time.

I must tell you all to watch kymatica it's availible to watch on good ol YouTube.
A brilliant must see for all.


anyways reasons for my random loggin on here:
i feel that there are certain things that are not being said both to me and others.
i sense a great deal of secrecy going on behind closed doors.
a general sense of unease be-foots me.

we are all trying to work out this game and we all have some idea of what we would like out of it. it's all about knowing i guess. i don't really know what i'm trying to say or what life is trying to tell me. i wish i could decode my experiences into coherent recelectible(!?) thoughts. my head has been a blender for the past 3 years and i've no idea why. i could make sense of things before and now... now it's just a mish mash of ... mash.